To my love.

Writing in english, because I don't want you to know how I feel right now. You should be the one who saves me, but you burned me into the grave. What fuck are you? I can't recognize you anymore. What freak did they do? You are a monster. A monster for whom I swore my heart. Can't you see? Can't you see how evil you are now? Do you like this? This shit where we are. You aren't allowed to talk about us. Because you buried our love to six feet under the ground. If I wake up and realize that everything was a nightmare, Will I stay with you? I don't think so. I can't believe in goodness inside you, because I don't see it anymore. You lost yourself in a dirty way. You lost me in your path. I want to turn the lights on, but you just like the darkness. You are disgusting. I can smell the carrion coming from you, even away. You could have love, but you prefered the bitching. You could have happiness, but you prefered depression. You could have the life, but you prefered death. You could have me, but you prefered your trivial cock. Don't think about what we were. Don't think it has "we" anymore. And, please, don't say the word love for me nevermore. I don't believe in you. I don't believe in your fake love. Sick love. You sick. Your love sucks. I hate you, can you understand? Of course not. Because you are so stupid that you need to use google translate for that. You are nothing, and I think nothing is not enough for you. You want to be less than this. My dad was right the whole time: you are not good enough for me. I tried too hard, fix the things up. I worked so hard for our shit. And you just throw it away! Cheeky fagot! Keep going out of my way. Don't make me puke again. I turned my feelings off. I don't want you trying to turn on. Don't you dare cross my way. I'll kill everyone who try put you back in my life. YOU ARE OUT. Let me have sex with some nice boys. Boys that like me and don't make me cry. You were my mistake and I won't do it again.